I am writing this one because somehow I’m addicted (If I’ll be considered as an addict) in watching porn sex. As the day passes by, it doesn’t excite me anymore because every video I am watching is all focus on their genital specifically penetration. I’d rather watch foreplay if there is than watching full porn. Also, whenever I’m watching different sex videos all girls feel so aroused and it’s like they like doing it to them, you know what I mean? There’s no tenderness. Like, duh. Especially the anal one imagined yourself you want to remove your bowel and it was stuck on your butt because it is so hard and thick and you can’t release it without pushing it too hard, the butthole can’t easily accommodate it.
Well anyway, I stopped watching it anymore because I have watched a TED Talk show about a guy who stopped watching porn. Then I realized, he was damn right for everything he had said during the talk. We don’t know if those girls were abducted and made them a prostitute. We don’t know if those girls (not referring to all) are just pretending that they like it but the truth is instead of moaning they wanted to scream. Try to watch that talk in youtube and you’ll be amazed. There I was watching how full of men ruined those women (I tried to watch the Czech Category tho) then I stopped. I’ve watched any videos from the different category. Honestly, instead of being aroused, I feel like throwing up. I don’t know haha. I was thinking, why boys like to watch it lol. It’s like they’re watching their own dick penetrating women’s vagina. Well, I’m not a boy so I don’t really know the true reason behind it. Don’t they have their own imagination?
Imagined if all the man became a woman and the things that they’ve done will actually be doing to them too? Tsk. Then, somehow I watch videos about public agent category. I do understand it. Girls were like they don’t have any choice but to do it because they need money (or because I only watched few of them). Hayy. Maybe, I was just saying this because I really don’t understand porn.
Last thought, I tried to watch scandals so my conscience wouldn’t eat me (that every time I watched porn there’s a girl who were abducted and made them a prostitute.) Then, (let’s get serious) I can see that most of it are teenagers. Most of it is those horny teenagers who are enjoying having sex with each other. Then as I continued watching those scandals, I get to see that most of them are around 15 and above because of their young faces. What it bother me the most is that, it’s all about penetration. No ‘making love’, No ‘foreplay’ and because Yssa, it’s plain sex. I wonder if it’s because of how the media influences all of us.
I deeply apologized to those person I get to watched their scandal. Believe me, my purpose is not to have an arousal because honestly I wasn’t. Instead of being aroused, I felt bad for them. I was just really curious. I was trying to oppose the video that enlightened me about what really porn is all about. I guess, I think I’ve answered my question. I also wonder why some of them need to video it. Do they need to see themselves, while doing it lol. Can’t they just imagine it and do it again for them just to memorize it and to prevent from future problems that they might encounter in the near future if they haven’t deleted it yet. Hayyy
.Maybe you’ll judge and ask me, if I’m still a virgin or I just need to get laid to fill my curiousity so I could feel and experience it but when I think of it, makes me want to throw up. If I’ll do it, I’ll do it with the one I really love and who feels the same for me.
Maybe I was just saying this
I don’t really understand porn
I don’t know how it truly works
I don’t know what’s rummaging in their head (man)
I am living in a conservative country
Where sex wasn’t really fully explain to us
I was really curious
I’m happy because I stopped watching it hehehe
Unedited. Will edit soon. No exact point, just sharing my thoughts and opinion about porn.